Away
It’s like eating glass. Your mouth is full of small pieces of glass and it’s bleeding. It’s crazy and it cannot be stopped. You realize that and bite more glass. You’ve got to swallow it. You deserve it. Don’t do it, please. It’s like cutting yourself with a razor. It cannot be stopped as well. And there is so much blood that the best idea is drawing happy faces on a cold floor and dirty walls with your own blood. It’s like rusty nails in your fingers. You hammer them – monotonously and slowly. You are afraid of yourself. The idea of killing yourself excites you. Somehow it gives you pleasure. You think you’ve deserved it. It’s like you cheating on you. You watch it and cannot believe your own eyes. You are cheating on you with a filthy scum leaving sticky spots on your sheets. You laugh as you don’t know what else to do. And you’ve got a boner from watching this happening. It scares you. And this fear turns you on. It’s like fighting with a tank. You beat and bite its iron hands and you know you are about to lose. You know you can do nothing. You pray knowing it won’t work. Your own prayers do not believe you and in you. This tank is going to swallow you; it will torture you forever in its mechanical insides. You pray. It’s like Love. It’s like a fear of Love. It’s like hating Love and wishing for it more and more. This is a cold desire burning your skin and soul. This is parasites in your bones. This is flowers growing out of your nerves. This is the end which will never begin. This is Jessica 93. And you’d better be careful with this desperate and sincere sound. But you cannot ignore it.
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